Wednesday 16 September 2015

Happy

I have feelings of complete happiness and content it usually lasts a few days for no apparent reasons so what could it be, I'm not complaining but why does it happen for no reason just like sometimes I feel I can't go on but the it's usually I've seen the human race in its true colours and know I'm part of all this hostility the feeling of wanting to end it all just to get away and not face what I've done and doing, but of cause I wouldn't I don't have the balls, but there's a reason for it but not the underlying happiness which shows me it can't be real it's programmed and I like it! Yes I do but I want this for everybody to feel this way all the time and the only way it can happen is we all come together as one and equil, then it would be real not programmed.

Tuesday 15 September 2015

Moving

next year I'm moving to live in Australia I have enough money to buy land or just house and no land, I've told my girls yurts might be the way to go, which there not pleased about plus the location is a long way from civilization this is ok for me and my husband but not them which is understandable, I really want to please everybody I rent a tiny house now and can't wait to get the space, but we have everything at hand here, why can't I please everybody I so want everybody happy just to harmony in the house/tent but you just can't please everybody, so I'm thinking about what's best for all and everybody but can't find the answer anywhere, so how do I'm make chooses for everything else that's best for all, when I can't even do it for my family, what is best for all! I just don't know, do we just all come to agreement with the environment/ governments when most of us aren't even on the same page! I want to do what's best for all, a year ago I asked the question should I desex my dog and of cause it's yes but my other dogs desexed had really back arthritis by 3 years old and I was convinced that it had something to do with it, but my vet asured me it didn't, now I'm reading lots have people have this problem with arthritic dog after desexing and it's now been found to be true, so did I again do what's right for all? I'm not so sure now, my olds dogs suffered so because of my choices and my dogs now could suffer, so the right thing is what, and why do I have to ask why don't I already know!