Funny but a couple of things popped up today that I wanted to write about but now as always I forgot I just can't remember anything I always forget stuff it's driving me crazy, why why why! I haven't worked out why but maybe it's to do with not hanging on to stuff, like more baggage and just dump it and my mind empty everything less baggage less responcibilty I don't want to carry any more than what I have already so just letting it go doesn't make me responcible for it, I understand now I don't like taking responsibility for anything act thick ans stupid and you won't blamed for any thing which ultimately I don't think I'm good enough!